Radix

When you were a child, you
would sit and listen to
your mother as she ironed your clothes -
the hissss that would occasionally
emit steam from behind and
remind you of trains (among other things).
It was a time in your life when you
wore socks that frayed at the edges and
that didn't have to say something
about you. Despite that, the thought of
that period in your life frightens you
immensely; but when asked, you just say
"There is always newness to be found -
a new needle and threat
a new way to dream dreams..."

It bothers you that you cannot dream in color,
only greyscale, and you are quick to anger
when people tell you "Maybe in another life
you were colorblind." You say that is irrational,
which is laughable coming
from you.
One day you will alter to dreaming in color,
you theorize. You are just in transit,
a fleeting ill.

And you know this because with
each day you are perceiving something new.
Even so, there is an impalpable emptiness
making its home inside your gut
and wallowing around.

10 years from not, you say you will
be unrecognizable.
You will grow out your hair, your nose
will be smaller, you will be a colossal...
You will no longer awaken each morning
to the sound of a cock-a-doodle-doo
but to the sound of a buzzing alarm clock in
its stead, and that will say something about you.
The present is only here to lull.
There is always newness to be found -
a new needle and thread,
a new way to dream dreams...